The weather has been crappy lately. I'm in the process of selling my car and cleaning shit out of my apartment. It's amazing to look at all the useless stuff I bought and stored in my crib over the years. I own 2 spa-pedicure sets, a huge-ass air purifier, and a workout bench that I rarely used. Well, what can I say? Don't ever give a girl extra money. It's gonna end up in some bad investments.

I'm gonna move in with Gina and OE by the end of this week and will be leaving for China in Mid-December. Sure there are people and things I hate to leave behind. But this is my chance for a new beginning.... a perfect start-over after the whole baby and marriage thing. I need to go because I can't stand the thought of living here and not seeing Kyle. I know the only reason I'm hesitating is that I'm so used to living my life this way and suddenly moving back home will generate a tidal wave of cultural shock within my comfort zone. But I can't hide in my shells forever can I?

I'll see you kids in Taiwan.

Shit.... I just saw something that kinda freaked me out. A while ago I was browsing on my friend's blog entries and I came across a link of another person's blog. It turned out to be a girl we both went to grade school with. I got bored writing my proposal a few hours ago and I decided to check out her blog.... I  found this web link which contains some contact info of the people I went to elementary school with.... OMFG! There are photos of 'em too!!!! They're not from my graduating class but I definately saw some farmiliar faces.

http://www.xanga.com/cynical_comment

Holy shit I feel so old!!!!

I think this dude and what he's doing for his class is pretty awesome. I've been living in the States for too long and have lost touch with almost everyone I knew in Taiwan. I'd love to find these people again after moving back home. I just wish someone in my graduating class would put up an effort to find the lost classmates too....

Oh by the way, I broke up with Kyle a while ago. So call me. Ellen needs to get wasted.

Here are some updates about my life:

I had a miscarriage a while ago. The doctor has been warning me so I was kinda expecting it. I'm fine both emotionally and physically. So now I think I'm gonna stick with the original plan. I'm moving back to Taiwan by the end of this year. There are things too important to be left unattended back home. My parents are too freakin' old and I want to spend time with them before they die on me. Plus I've been living in the States for almost 8 years now. It's about time to move on. I need to meet new people and explore new things. Maybe I'll join the Red Cross and travel to some remote places to feed the mosquitos. Oh I'm such a nice person.

Okay.... I gotta admit I've been slacking off on writing useless shit on this site. Here are some updates about my oh-so-interesting life in the Midwest.

I'm not going back to Taiwan as planned. Why? Because I got knock up! Who's the daddy? Of course Kyle is. Who the fuck else? So now I'm planning on having this baby here in Minnesota. I guess everyone around me could sense the sweet irony of the fact that I'm going to be a mom.

I HATE CHILDREN!!!!

Well, hopefully I'll like my own kids. At least I'll teach them to NOT BE ANNOYING. I don't know the sex of the baby yet. Kyle wants a son and he's really looking forward to have some father and son male-bonding time with the kid. The rest of my crew are hoping that I'll have a girl because.... there's no need to create another male organism to pollute the world and hump everything that walks. Plus little girls' clothes are cuter. Oh you selfish bitches!

I AM happy about having a baby though. I just didn't expect it to happen so soon. I mean, what about my career? Am I really going to be a stay-at-home mom? What about my parents? My mom already knows but if my dad finds out he's probably gonna have a stroke.... or he'll keep nagging at me until I burst a vein in the head too. Ahhh! Life is so complicated. So many difficult choices to make. I'd like my kid to grow up speaking Chinese.... actually not jusy speaking, but learning to write Chinese too. I'll have to talk to Kyle about this. Damn it! My head is gonna explode!

Ugh!

Out of all the public restrooms in parks this is probably the coolest.